Lately I’ve noticed that out of all of the close friends online that I have, only one asks me to play. The rest I’ve know for at least a year each, and I’m always the one reaching out to them to play. I have their birthdays in my calendar, and they seem like they have a good time playing when we run some apex games. It just feels kinda sucky that when they get on I’m not a thought in their mind for who they want to ask to play, especially since I don’t have any real friends in real life. I wish they’d either tell me they don’t like playing with me, or just communicate. I feel like they play out of obligation since I’m a girl, but I’m not terrible at the game at all and I tend to think I’m pretty funny. Just kinda hurts. Any ideas as to why they’re like this? Should I just back out of the friendships and wait for them to reach out? Thank you for all your thoughts!
Edit: for the trolls thinking I’m trying to get attention, here is evidence of my telling my only friend that asks to play how much it meant earlier this morning https://imgur.com/a/hrLsOTX